my deepest and darkest fear is loneliness. it’s this feeling that haunts me constantly. no matter how much companionship and friendship divert me from it, at the end of the day, i always find myself trapped within its binding chains. i know that i’m awkward in my speech, appearance and attitude but i try my best to open myself up to society. after all, it is my main goal this year: to not become too caught up in my schoolwork, to socialize more, to open up my friendship circle. but with each step that i take, i find myself walking backward. i know that if i want to have more friends, i have to be compassionate, patient, and caring but how can some people be so hurtful? how is it that they always remind me and taunt me with my fear? when i stare at them, i can always see loneliness lingering on their faces. don’t they know that they hurt me when they leave me talking to myself? that’s what hurts the most. that they don’t listen. perhaps, it is a game that they are playing with me. to make me look like a fool. if that is so, then, i am a fool. world, i am the biggest FOOL of all because no one listen to me. i talk to myself. but what i learn from the experience this year is that not everyone is fit out to be your friends. friends are those who will appreciate and LISTEN to all of your words. they are those who you give your love to without regret because they will return their empathy and compassion back to you.  

oceanofmind:

In the end 
these things matter most: 
How well did you love? 
How fully did you live? 
How deeply did you let go?

— Siddhārtha Gautam